I love watching my children fall asleep. They look so innocent and content and I often try to remember a time when I used to feel so carefree and at one with the world like children do at this stage of their lives. That’s not to say I don’t feel happy and content right now because I do and love being alive, but my head is always filled with so many random things rattling around it that I sometimes can’t wait to go to bed at night. I mean, it can even get to a stage when I start dreaming about what I haven’t done, whether it be the washing I forgot to take out of the machine, a bill I forgot to pay or a friend I didn’t get chance to call back.

One thing I’m aware of is the need to teach my children the value of life and money. Growing up I was made fully aware that life was tough, and money was tight. I have no problem with that, but it just meant that from a young age I had to deal with not being in the ‘cool gang’ or have the latest ‘cool accessories’. It seems things have changed a little these days and children want everything! I’m not sure if it’s to do with marketing, social media or things being more accessible or cheaper, but lessons still have to be learned. I want to ensure that in our house everything we want must be earned and material things don’t actually matter.

Maybe I’m just in a thoughtful mood as I’ve just put the children to bed, but I do worry what life will be like for them in twenty years’ time. What will they be doing? How will they feel? What worries will they have? I only hope and pray that in years to come they will still fall asleep feeling carefree and at one with the world and themselves.